Last few days I haven’t felt fully myself. I haven’t been waking up happy and filled with life rather I have been dragging and feeling sad. Usually my children would cheer me up and I would shift my mood immediately – but no, it didn’t work. I noticed how I close myself down and choose to be alone. My passion for physical movement was replaced with not wanting to move at all. Even more than that, I started to experience chest pains and almost choking sensations. I noticed how anxiety started to develop inside me. Then I remembered that it was a while ago since I experienced any type of bodywork and CranioSacral Therapy. I called for session right away. I love Sacred Journey Massage – which is the combo of massage and CranioSacral Therapy.
As I was laying facing down I felt the fist connecting touch. In this first moment the therapist put his hands on me I lost it. I cried. I mean I really cried, I was one with my emotions and they wanted to come up as tears. After the first wave of emotional release I could take deeper breath. As the therapist was massaging my back and legs, I felt how my body released all the tension, accumulated over the period of time, eased up and was going away. How magically I could go in between states of consciousness and it felt like a subtle dance within me. From very aware state I could easily go into dream state and come back and the only one thing I needed to do is to surrender and allow myself to let go. The therapist asked me to slide down and turn over, I couldn’t move my body. I smiled inside because I really had to focus on bringing myself back into my center to be able to process the request. The therapist used various massage techniques and then he started CranioSacral Therapy. During the CST our bodies go into deep state of relaxation. CST is resetting our nervous system by balancing cerebrospinal fluid flow and allowing the bones on the skull to unwind and get into balance. I felt that safety and warmness from the head hold. I experienced it so many times – this sense of freedom and lightness that takes over from feeling trapped, stressed and heavy. It is not uncommon that during sessions like this emotional releases happen. It is because the SJI therapists are trained to “hold space” and lead the clients through any type of emotional states. When the therapist placed his hands on my heart another release just happened. I felt rush of energy traveling from my heart into my throat and I started to laugh. After few moments this rush settled down and left the sense of lightness, sense of feeling finally to be “ME”, feeling that my Body, Mind and Soul are One. Self love, self acceptance coming from the heart without any judgments took over.
After this session I had to go to sleep to allow all the changes to settle within me. As much as I couldn’t sleep before- I felt easiness in falling asleep and resting. When I woke up I couldn’t believe that I don’t feel this heaviness in my chest, these almost like heart attack sensations were totally gone! Not only the physical body pain left but this centered state, this warm and strong knowing that I’m fine grew in my core.
What can I add? Just one word – Thank you, comes to my mind. I wanted to say thank you for place like Beyond Wellness exist, where different states of being are understood. The therapists that with full compassion can bring up the energies that are ready to be released and without any judgment can assist in any type of the emotional release.
Life & Wellness Coach
NLP Master Practitioner